Woah. i apologize for my absence all this while. Seriously. I had so many things to write about but, just never got around to saying it. Or maybe its just that im not a very good writer.
Have you ever thought of yourself to be a serious #1 fan bout something, say maybe a band or even your unexplainable fetish for cats that its already to a point where you just know where or when their next gig is or when the latest copy of their annual feline calender's comin up. But after a while you get well, bored and totally indifferent about stuff related to it until one day you're completely oblivious to their existance.
Well lets just say if the you back then met up with the you now, there'd be a serious showdown. 'Fangirl VS Hater'
Just saying cause, well ive been there. I was a serious fan of Panic! At the Disco. Maybe after a while i got tired of keeping up with them and decided to shut them out of my life :/ And i didnt have the slightest interest in them at all.
Nope i was wrong.i was deceiving myself. I am in fact STILL a #1 fan of P!ATD. and how did i come to that conclusion? By re-watching all their videos. OK YEA-YEA-YEA. call me silly all you want but really. I got bored over the weekend so i decided to just scroll around for some music and came across my Panic! at the disco playlist on my youtube channel. i listened to their songs and like an, arrow it shot me like instantly. like a dynamite had been ignited. A BURST OF PASSION. haha i sound like a cheesy skoolgirl. no but seriously. i felt like i had forgotten a big responsibility of mine, which was to be an ardent supporter of P!ATD.
i literally melted at the sound of Brendon Urie's alluring voice and enticing body<3>
Conclusion: I am a #1 fan of P!ATD, ultimately Brendon Urie cause he's some piece of freaggin hawt stuff.
you guys should check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lorLyOqclks&feature=related
You know how some singers , yeah they might not be one of the best vocalists, but DAYYUM. Brendon's got it all man. I just well find his voice really really unique<3>
And i also watched the concerts they performed. Which REALLY REALLY got me thinking about what i wanted to be when i grow up. Cause rite now the way i see it, im just gonna end up like any other person in singapore, a busy career woman whom would want to earn enough money to support her family when she gets married by her mid-30s. True enough, i might end up like that if i follow the monotone ritual thats laid out before me: Study (2 years in sec school)->Study (2-3 years in jc/poly)-> Study(3-4 years in uni)->Study(get degree/diploma/watever takes bout 4-5 years)-> get a job->get married->set up a family-> spend all the money you saved so hard for.
Seems to me the only reason why we're working so hard for so that we dont end up homeless by the time we turn 60.That's just pathetic. Im bored. I want to do something significant in my life. I dont want to do what everybody else does.
Why cant i be like PATD or Madonna even? All she had was 30 bucks in 'er pocket when she left home and BAM look where she is now. Maybe its cause of the circumstances here, maybe we're just too protected here that we just cant survive on spare change and end up successful. now it makes me wish i was never born here. just makes me wish i was born American, capital A mind you. i think i could make it with just a guitar in my hand and some connections from high skool. I would have made it if i were born and raised American. Would have. Probably.
Right now i have a long way. And since i cant change the fact im here, i'll just face it. i'll do whatever it takes to survive, and till the day i get to do things my way, i'll push on through
P.S: Just a little secret between you and me, what i REALLY want to be is a *ROCKSTAR* Period.
