How did it get like this?
I can't.
You can't leave.
Even if it's what I say.
I alway say things I don't mean.
But you're too good for me.
I don't deserve you. You can find someone better. I already have so many problems with myself, I doubt I'd find anyone.
Maybe I will.
But NO ONE like you.
And I can't live with that.
It's tearing me apart.
The fear, the fear that your feelings will fade, or have faded before mine.
Pure torture.
I can't take it.
You are my everything.
I feel so insignificant.
I'm a nuisance
An annoyance
A nobody.
It's ok. Tell me if you no longer feel anything for me. It's my punishment. I deserve it.
My eyes hurt from all this crying.
I push you away. But all I need is you to be close. Hug me. Kiss me.
I feel like you're disgusted by me.
You hate me.
I would hate myself too.
