I just realized.

I don't have anything.

& It doesn't matter what kind of medicine i take. Or the dosage.

I'm gonna die eventually.

STDs

Hey Lady.

I know how you feel. My hopes already been crushed.

I have AIDS. You have...Syphillis?

We're still both on the losing end but there's still hope.

Let's take the medication aites?

Together forever sister.

We'll grieve,cry and die together.

Stupid Doctor.

But it's not entirely his fault.

It's ours for having sex with too many people XD

But till the day we die, or if God let there be a miracle-till the day we recover,

we'll be trying our best, hand in hand aites?

<3

Talk to the mirror and choke back tears.

Woah. i apologize for my absence all this while. Seriously. I had so many things to write about but, just never got around to saying it. Or maybe its just that im not a very good writer.

Have you ever thought of yourself to be a serious #1 fan bout something, say maybe a band or even your unexplainable fetish for cats that its already to a point where you just know where or when their next gig is or when the latest copy of their annual feline calender's comin up. But after a while you get well, bored and totally indifferent about stuff related to it until one day you're completely oblivious to their existance.

Well lets just say if the you back then met up with the you now, there'd be a serious showdown.        'Fangirl VS Hater'

Just saying cause, well ive been there. I was a serious fan of Panic! At the Disco. Maybe after a while i got tired of keeping up with them and decided to shut them out of my life :/  And i didnt have the slightest interest in them at all.

Nope i was wrong.i was deceiving myself. I am in fact STILL a #1 fan of P!ATD. and how did i come to that conclusion? By re-watching all their videos. OK YEA-YEA-YEA. call me silly all you want but really. I got bored over the weekend so i decided to just scroll around for some music and came across my Panic! at the disco playlist on my youtube channel. i listened to their songs and like an, arrow it shot me like instantly. like a dynamite had been ignited. A BURST OF PASSION. haha i sound like a cheesy skoolgirl. no but seriously. i felt like i had forgotten a big responsibility of mine, which was to be an ardent supporter of P!ATD. 

i literally melted at the sound of Brendon Urie's alluring voice and enticing body<3>

Conclusion: I am a #1 fan of P!ATD, ultimately Brendon Urie cause he's some piece of freaggin hawt stuff.

you guys should check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lorLyOqclks&feature=related

You know how some singers , yeah they might not be one of the best vocalists, but DAYYUM. Brendon's got it all man. I just well find his voice really really unique<3>

And i also watched the concerts they performed. Which REALLY REALLY got me thinking about what i wanted to be when i grow up. Cause rite now the way i see it, im just gonna end up like any other person in singapore, a busy career woman whom would want to earn enough money to support her family when she gets married by her mid-30s. True enough, i might end up like that if i follow the monotone ritual thats laid out before me: Study (2 years in sec school)->Study (2-3 years in jc/poly)-> Study(3-4 years in uni)->Study(get degree/diploma/watever takes bout 4-5 years)-> get a job->get married->set up a family-> spend all the money you saved so hard for.

Seems to me the only reason why we're working so hard for so that we dont end up homeless by the time we turn 60.That's just pathetic. Im bored. I want to do something significant in my life. I dont want to do what everybody else does.

Why cant i be like PATD or Madonna even? All she had was 30 bucks in 'er pocket when she left home and BAM look where she is now. Maybe its cause of the circumstances here, maybe we're just too protected here that we just cant survive on spare change and end up successful. now it makes me wish i was never born here. just makes me wish i was born American, capital A mind you. i think i could make it with just a guitar in my hand and some connections from high skool. I would have made it if i were born and raised American. Would have. Probably.

Right now i have a long way. And since i cant change the fact im here, i'll just face it. i'll do whatever it takes to survive, and till the day i get to do things my way, i'll push on through

P.S: Just a little secret between you and me, what i REALLY want to be is a                                            *ROCKSTAR*                                                                                        Period.

Hello.

It seems like everyone's not nice nowadays. I get the point you're trying to convey but hey sometimes you just have to take it in and realise, it's not all about you cause someone else is involved here. And that someone is a person. Just like you and me. Calm down. You're only 13. It's easy to get sensitive. I know how you feel. The BOTH of you. 

I've been through hard times too. I know what it feels like to have nobody. Yeah they say frens are for eternity. But what if you don't have any? It's ok you can find one. Sooner or later. Stop being so pessimistic young lad. Yeah it's not all good but if you learn how to overcome this hurdle believe me, you're gonna survive the toughest challenges (even maths problem sums seem like nose boogers). Cause you've got to realise there are other people worst off then you who don't give in. If they did i wouldn't be here.

I don't wanna start gettin personal but hey i'm doin pretty fine with my mom even though i dont have a dad. It sucks. Big time. But you don't see me threatenin to jump of from the sixth storey just to 'end it all'. Cause its never gonna end. That's what i learnt. Even if i'm dead. I've got to think for my mom. She'll cry her eyes out. Literally. 

So honey if you're not gonna do it for yourself, at least hold through for your parents cause they are really the ones that stick by you, if not companions.

And you little girl. I understand your frustrations too. I know you didn't mean it. Nobody ever does. Not until someone gets hurt. It was you could say a reaction a 'spur of the moment', that made you feel it was right to write all that. But honey, you've also got to think for the other person. He's got feelings too. He's got a working brain and best of all a sensitive heart. Everybody does. Even you. But did you realise something? There are so many of us in this world (: different people, unique and special in their own ways. But realise something, though they are different what isit that prevents them from killing each other or fighting? It's the fact that they listen. I went to this workshop once and it really left a mark on me and there was this phrase that said

"Seek to understand, then to be understood"

You've got to listen first before you can speak darlin. Can you do that? I don't blame ANY of you.

Cause we're all different (:

Marriage? Oh so young...

WORD OF THE DAY
Brown [broun]

–noun
1.a dark tertiary color with a yellowish or reddish hue.

2.a person whose skin has a dusky or light-brown pigmentation.

–adjective
3.of the color brown.

4.(of animals) having skin, fur, hair, or feathers of that color.

5.sunburned or tanned.

Now that explains a lot doesn't it?

It's a pretty neat idea to put up 'word of the day' or even 'picture of the day'
which i know i will NEVER run out of material for...

Well any-who in the blowfish...
was somehow talking bout Benjamin Yeo (:
the aspiring, talented (& ever so gorgeous) young conductor :D
Wanyong said he's MARRIED ):

I think and hope so NOT. okay...i just meddled with the font and don't know how to get it back :/

i'm a TOTAL noob at this...blogging that is..ahahhaha...shucks

[BACK TO TOPIC] we were suddenly discussing much bout him and what he's taking..in particular Geography and that he
went back to his secondary school to teach which then we started debating whether or not we would listen to him teach if he were a trainee teacher or not.

That's when Sarah made an EXCELLENT point (okay i think i got my font back)

QUOTE: "Even if he did teach me i would stare at him for the entire lesson. Then later on i'll go for one on one remedial with him"

-Increases revision time and further encouraging you to pay attention (:

IMPRESSIVE :d anyway i really do not think he's married but even if he were well...
-I'd still be happy for him
-Furthermore he's too old for me
-8 YEARS older....

I guess it's just not meant to be huh....
oh yeah clarinetists...we owe 120 pumpings...for stands (30 each) and files
(Jia)2 and Aqil went overseas
Kai ting n chelsea sick...

JIA JIA!!! YOU NEH TELL ME YOU GG OVERSEAS.YOU GOOD SIA.

And Everlyn you better wash that stain off properly. PRONTO.

Peanut butter on apples are nice. Refreshing and tasty (:

-Lina

YAY ME!
i did it! A new blog... ahahahah. well i'm not deleting my other one..but the probability of me using it again is only if i have an epic mood swing. then i'll confide in that blog.

OKAY SARAH.I'M SORRY. as an apology...
I'LL MAKE MY VERY FIRST ENTRY WISHING YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Dear Sarah,
Happy Belated's huney...i'm shorry...13th June.
Got it. I'll remember that eternally. Rite. I've NEVER seen you as a friend. A pal.
Or even a best friend. I see you as a sister...a TWIN even (cause of our weirdly in-sync abilities and our uncanny resemblance with each other), if ya get what i mean...i really love ya.and your accent. and your FAMILY which of late i dont seem to be stalking that much...so please SISTA...forgive me ): you are like...the cream in the oreo. the ice cream in my float...the...well you get the picture. HAPPY BURTHDAY SISTA :D

On a side note...my belief in karma suddenly heightened since what happened yesterday... I'm sorry Aqil for spraying that brown liquid on your shirt...which resulted in Sandy smashing my cup and it shattered into peices..wait...can a bubble tea cup shatter? what's the word to use then...broke? tore? OH WELL. long story short...

karma chases right back at ya.

But Aqil's just a dirty, dirty boy.
Speakin of dirty boy's...i forgot to ask Daryl whether we could decorate the clarinet cupboard with our pictures...i'm not stating what kind of pictures but there'll surely be our section photo. Hopefully he approves cause our cupboard pales in comparison to the percussion one... AH the unity...

well...i guess that's it then...planning to finish up my homework today...hopefull (:

-Lina